Time is flying

Wow I can't believe it's April and the month is almost over.

Life in our home is hectic to say the least. I don't know why I can't get more done. A friend told me this week that my expatiation's are too high. Is that possible? I beat myself up for not getting enough done in a day and for what everyone else seems to be able to accomplish in a day that I can't. Is that a part of being a parent or is it just me. I feel like everyone else is able to accomplish so much more than me. And I'll say it, life seems much more challenging now than it did when we brought Jana home 9months ago, could that be possible?

I have a friend who has 4 children and always seems to have it together. I know she has her challenges and struggles but to look at her, she's just a pro, I wish often I had what she does. Maybe that's my problem, I often want to be someone else, always comparing myself to those I feel are "doing it better". I often wonder what people think of me once I leave a room, store, etc. I'm not trying to please them but do they think WOW she's a mess.

Although I struggle with my self and beat myself up I do try my best and I love my kids, all 4 of them. I wouldn't change a thing either. Although I'm not living up to my own standards I am always trying and I have a great amount of love to give, which I do to those who allow me to.

Moving on to more positive things:

Kai has a concert tonight at school. He is so excited he has been talking about it for 2 months now and he just told me he has a solo of sorts. He didn't give any details just said I'll have to wait until tonight. We are so excited to see him & his classmates. I feel blessed to have some family members who are making it a point to be there tonight. Most of my family lives about an hour away so for them to rush here to see Kai just makes him feel like a superstar.

On Friday we will be finalizing Jana's adoption. I can't believe we are about to close this chapter of our lives. It does make me a little sad but when I look around me and see all that God has blessed us with I can't even explain the overwhelming feeling of joy and love I have.

Well I'm off there is always so much to do and so little time but I have a private tea party with a little someone that is about to start. :0)

Catching up

My fundraising thought for March are to visit adoptionbug.com and look under their current fundraising page. There are so many families who could really use help.

Life here is hectic but hectic is our normal speed.

The kids are growing way too quick for me, it's all a blur. I really wish there was a way to slow some things down but knowing that's not possible we continue on.

Julian is doing well in school. He was in the school spelling bee and made it to the 4th round. He is now working on an invention for his PEN class. In April his group with join with the other groups from the school district and they will have an Invention Convention, it's all very exciting. Also we celebrated Julian's Gotcha Day this month. This one especially had me emotional because I took a good look around to see how far we have come in the last 9 years.

Kai tested for another belt in Karate and is moving right on up. He is also doing well in school and continues to make us proud just as his big brother does. The boys are a challenge at times but I wouldn't change a single minute.

Karley is just amazing, she wants to learn everything possible and has an amazing imagination. Before I know it she will be off to pre-school and OH is she ready to go. She gets her little back pack daily and tells me she is going to school. I'm so not ready for that.

Jana is progressing good. Although she is still not walking she is making great improvement. Jana just likes to do things her way and walking on her knees is her thing. This week she has been walking alot behind her shopping cart though which is a good sign. I continue to do physical therapy with her and when shes ready she'll do it.

We got our court date yesterday to finalize Jana's adoption but we need to reschedule it. We are just so close to the end it's hard to imagine that our very long road is about to end. This makes me wonder what the next chapter is going to be.

February's Fundraiser's

The following link is for the Tilghman family. They are fundraising to bring their daughter Olive home from Korea. Olive is a sibling to the Tilghman's daughter Judah. I hope you will consider making a donation to their cause.

http://www.sisterolive.com/

Of course I want to give a shout out to http://www.adoptionbug.com/ , love this company for many reasons.
1)They are Christians
2) They provide fundraising with heart for adoptive families.
3) The quality of their products are great
4) The owner goes above and beyond...
these are just a few of the reasosn's.

Please check out their website and look under fundraisers at family or organization fundraisers.

Hope if your reading this you'll find it in your heart to help one of these families.

Thank you.

Please support Davids get to his forever family

Please consider making a donation in any amount to help the Kilgore family raise the remaining funds needed to bring Davids home. http://www.projecthopeful.org/donate.
BE SURE TO WRITE DAVIDS IN THE COMMENTS SECTIONS TO ENSURE THE MONEY GOES TO HIS FAMILY

You now can follow Davids and Peter's story on their forever family's blog at http://kilgore6.blogspot.com

There are 147 Million Orphans out there alone in this world. Please consider helping a family make one of these children theirs. If Davids story doesn't touch your heart please consider checking out www.adoptionbug.com and look under the fundraising tab for a family or organization to support.

Thank you for your prayerful consideration.

Trying to help those in need of adoption funds

After learning about Davids this week I have been thinking alot about how many children are just like him. How many children around the world age out of a program and go on never to be adopted? Then I started thinking about how many families there may be who have the love to give a child but just can't afford the funds to get to them..

I've decided to blog and facebook post about 1 family or child each month. I will post links to your blog, website, facebook page etc to help you get the word out. I am only one person and I have no idea how many people I reach but I am so passionate about adoption and hope my efforts will some how help the families I support.

I have no idea how I will choose each family/child but since I usually make decisions based on my faith and my heart I'm believing God will direct me to those who could use the help.

So if your reading this post and you yourself want me to help you spread the word or you know someone who needs help spreading the word about their fundraiser or you need some fundraising ideas please email me at korea.again@yahoo.com .

January is dedicated to Davids from Latvia please click her for more information http://little-did-i-know.blogspot.com

Thank you for reading and I hope you will all pass on the word about funds needed for Davids. Every dollor will help this boy so please consider giving.

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How big can my heart grow

There are days (most lately) that I wonder how God thought I could possibly raise 4 children. I am overwhelmed and feel like I can't get anything completed. I wonder if I'm making the right choices and feel like a complete failure. But then one of them hug me for no reason or tell me how much they love me or thank me just out of the blue and it always seems to be at that moment that I think I just can't do one more thing.

I often watch the kids sleep at night and wonder why God blesses us so abundantly. I look at each and every one of my amazingly beautiful children and my heart swells with so much love. I admit each time we waited for placement of our children I wondered if I could love them enough. It started with Julian wondering if I had enough love to be a mother then Kai wondering how I could possibly love him as much as I did Julian but he quickly took my heart and then as we waited for Karley I wondered how any little girl could fine a place as big as "my boys" in my heart. Little did I know what I was missing. There are many days that I wonder how I lived without a daughter and then there was Jana, so completely unexpected and I wondered where she would fit in and with her strong personality she busted right into her place. I love each and every one of these children with my whole being. I think that is what God gave me The heart to love abundantly.

So in those moments that I think I can't go on, that life is just too difficult I pray that God helps me remember how much I have to be thankful for. Our life certainly has been a challenge for more years that I can count. Nothing has ever come easy to us but I think that is why I appreciate all that we do have and dare I say more than most. I look at others and and can't help but think how they take so much for granite. I think most do including me but I'm thankful for all the times I realize how blessed we really are.